and i wonder

i wonder how many people are following my blog 'anonymously'. i wonder how many people check my blog regularly. i wonder how many people want to comment on my posts but don't because they don't want me knowing they're on my page (because anonymous comments aren't actually anonymous...). i wonder how many people have already made up their mind that they don't like me, but read my thoughts and realize theres more to me than they may know, and still choose not to like me. i wonder how many people are going to read this and think i'm thinking of them as i write this. i wonder how many people think they know who each of my posts are about. i wonder how many times people take offense to my posts thinking it's about them. i wonder how many people gossip about what i write. i wonder how many random people come across my blog and can relate. i wonder how many people's lives i may have changed today, for better or for worse...if any at all...