do you want it like i want it?

today i realized there is hope.
i fell in love with the idea of this man - J.Myers. not just because he was attractive, or his swag when he performs, but his words, his personality, his character. it let me know that there are good guys out there, because in all honesty, with the dudes i've dealt with, i was seriously losing faith in the idea of there being someone for everyone. i don't feel that i have high expectations, but you'd probably have to ask someone i've been with to get a more "realistic" answer on that. but regardless i deserve better than the shit that some of these dudes have been throwing my way. it's crazy how some people can be in some form of a relationship, caring about someone, and just intentionally doing them wrong on a consistent basis. i don't get down with that..doing things they know will hurt the one they're with. it's a character flaw, not a mistake. i will never understand that and i don't even want to try to.

but back to optimism...

today i talked to Jmyers after hearing him perform a few of his songs, but firstly, I fell in love with the concept of his music and the kind of man he portrays through his words...and in real life. my first song of choice: I Give You My Soul. "i'll give you my soul in exchange for yours. you know that i understand, girl i wanna be a man and give you my soul." i love that because that's a trap i've found myself continually falling into. giving my soul to someone who doesn't reciprocate that action. and sometimes it's just that, it takes a man to give his soul and take that leap. and having taken that jump numerous times myself, i'm tired of no one being their to catch me...at least not the right way.
I also love the line where he says "i can't let you get away. can't let you walk away from me. 'cause you're the best thing i've ever seen." i feel like i've delt with a lot of weaklings. dudes scared to show real interest in fear of getting turned down. i want a dude who doesnt take what's in front of him for granted. i like a man with a little determination. Who would stop at just about nothing just to get the chance to even talk to me. I'm definitely not one to give just anyone my attention..at least definitely not anymore. i've learned. I’ve got to see you really want it. You got to work for it. What the fuck am I going to do with a dude who’s quick to give up when presented with a challenge. What does that say about your character? Someone who’s willing to let go if he’s scared or when things are tough. That’s definitely not someone I’m trying to devote my time and effort towards. maybe you guys who complain about how 'difficult some women are to approach' need to understand that it's because we're not trying to waste our time on just anyone. i need someone deeper than an "ay ma, you lookin good.." um, yeah....ike i didn't know that...
i love that he's sweet with his words and has fun with his music. his music isn't all about showing love through sexin or a bunch of off the wall metaphors..he's straight forward with it. too many guys nowadays are playing games, either being a player, trying to be a player or just acting like they're a player when they're not. that's so overrated. he's not asking for her body, but her soul...do you understand how rare that is?!
he performed another song called Cool As A Fan, "see if i was a creep creep creep i would make your relationship a living hell...i would hack into your phone and check all of your voicemails...and if i was a jerk jerk jerk, i'd probably [something about showing up at work looking for an excuse to'go dumb' and tell you off in front of everybody]" lol..basically acknowledging all of the wack things a dude could do to a woman, (but saying he's not like that, he's just a cool dude tryna talk to a woman)...just brought me back to the reality of the dating scene and how wack it really can be at times. it's refreshing to know that a male knows how lame males can be....and is trying not to be that.

even after the show, talking to him, he wasn't trying to be a ladies man or get everyone's attention. he was truly humble and seemed like a good guy. it's funny how all the ladies were saying he must have a girlfriend...


not to mention the fact that:
he can sing. and everyone knows i'm a weakling for the singers.
annnd, he plays the guitar..and extremely well. but it's more than that. he makes it sexy and look so easy. yum.