today was quite a day. it wasn't a bad day, it wasn't a good day, but it was a day. i realized how strong of a person i am today. i like it too. i really am growing. i really do have more self confidence. it's amazing what believing in yourself can do for you - even when you don't realize it. so today, despite the hardships, i continued to smile, i kept my head up, and i held on to my faith tighter than i've ever had to and ever want to have to again. i'm sure the ambiguity is annoying, but those who know will know. (what?) i guess, i'm saying all this to say, i'm proud of myself. i had a really good day in terms of how i handled myself and dealt with what life threw my way. normally i'd be laying at the foot of my bed, head under the covers in the fetal position, pushing everyone away from me with my puffy little face and squinty eyes. we all know how that goes. taking all the obstacles i faced as my failure to make my path to success an easy one. i'm done with that mentality though. life is hard. i'm just realizing that. you know what's even harder than life? relationships. not everything in life will be easy. so many people say it, but i've totally been taking that advice for granted. but it's the hard times that make life exciting. that's when some of the most awkward memories are made. and everyone loves an awkward moment to remember. so, i think i cannot sleep because i'm so proud of how i handled my day that i'm kind of nervous about going to sleep, in fear that my new found confidence may have just simply been a temporary thing. i'm really hoping it's not. i like it. others like it too! matter of fact, i just wont let it. i'm sticking with this attitude for the rest of my life. from now it's like a marriage...and i refuse to get a divorce. im with happiness, and he's moving in because he's here to stay....lol. what am i even saying? i'm going to get to the real point of this blog: VH1.
why VH1 you ask?
so since i cannot sleep, i've been up watching VH1, and they've just been playing music videos for the past few hours. and fortunately for me, a lot of these videos were songs i enjoy listening to, by artists i enjoy watching in videos ive been wanting to see! it was a win win win situation. and the cool thing about VH1 that's kind of underrated (because VH1 has officially become ALL reality TV shows...but i guess nothing is wrong with a reality TV show.............) is how diverse the music is that they play. so i appreciate that VH1 and i just needed to get that off my chest.
touché VH1, touché
Thursday, February 19
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2 comments:
it's a beautiful thing when self-awareness meets self-actualization...that is a great attitude to carry forward..everybody gets the same amount of time each day..24hrs..so why waste any of those precious seconds...minutes. Life is a choice..and choosing happiness is never a bad thing! :) And the fact that you are conscientious that yes things will be hard, only makes you that much stronger..prepared.
Keep movin on up girl! :)
i couldn't agree more! it's a wonderful feeling. i'm glad i'm not alone on this lol. i shall keep moving on up and you should definitely continue to do the same.
keep on keepin on! :D
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