it's finals week..i'm extremely stressed
but it's not even from school - that's the sad part.
i no longer know what to think about people.
that's not specific to boys nor girls..just people in general.
overall, ive concluded that i just expect too much from people
and of course that's completely my fault.
it's a combination of my high expectations, and my rapidly fluctuating moods that makes it really difficult to maintain
a solid and consistent friendship with people..again, i acknowledge
that that is completely my fault.
the problem is, i'm not sure how to fix any of this, because my friends and our relationships mean a lot to me. so consequently, if
they're not doing well, then i'm not doing well -- hence my ongoing STRESS
recently i realized that i get upset, like any normal person would, when you're the friend that's constantly making the effort in a relationship (and it sucks even more when it goes unrecognized). i've been feeling a little taken for granted, it frustrates me, and i get extremely sad/irritated/affected by it.
IT GETS WORSE.
earlier this school year, i became the person i didnt like. the person that doesnt understand why someone is affected when you're too busy for them, or is too lazy to work towards maintaining a worthwhile friendship. and for that i apologize. because i essentially lost a really good friend who was nothing but there for me when i needed her and
constant neglect + impatience = bad relationship
i WAS on this new, i'm only going to make time for those who make time for me..but then i realized..i need to start making more of an effort....
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