so, my blog this far has been about how completely confused i am about my life and the situations i find myself in. but with everyday, i reach a greater sense of clarity. i wouldnt go out on a limb to say it's a new me, but i'm trying to approach things with a different mindset. I'm tired of having drama in my life, it's so tiring, right?! - thus, i want to eliminate it the best way i know how, and for me, that's by refusing to give people a reason to..essentially think poorly of me. however, yet and still, I find myself getting not only dragged into situations, but blamed for the actions of others...which isn't cool. i'd rather people not assume i'm behind the drama in their lives. regardless, i can't help if someone has something against me, and as far as i'm concerned, as long as i try to resolve things on my end, there's not much more i can do but be the happiest, greatest, most positive me there is and those who like me, like me, and those who don't, don't. you know what they say; a [wo]man who tries to be liked by everyone has no backbone. well, i used to not have a back bone, but thanks to a good friend of mine, i've developed a great sense of integrity. in-teg-ri-ty. and that's literally something that no one can take from me. i plan to do something great with my life, but i will not do it for anyone but myself. I've gotten lost many-a-times trying to make others happy, and i still plan to provide happiness for as many people as possible, but i can't sacrifice my own happiness along the way. (i learned that from another good friend of mine). To sum it up, i'm happy because i'm doing me and being true to myself and my feelings and remembering to surround myself with the people who bring out the best in me.
so i'm pretty content with how things are going...i do miss my papa though. -_-
